Band really has been bothering me. In a perfect world, it would be my favorite class. But it can't be, because of the people involved. My ex-boyfriend, Jesse, and his best friend, Gavin, are in my trumpet section in band. They NEVER shut up. EVER. They talk during all of the rests and even when we are supposed to be playing. It drives me up the wall. And my teacher doesn't call them out or anything. I tried to confront her about it today. Boy did that go down well...not. I hate that I can't say to a teacher, "Hey, these kids our poisoning my learning environment and ability to grow" without getting yelled at, lectured, and pissing them off. I should be able to fight for that environment for myself. Especially because this class is music, and music is VERY important to me. I try to ignore it. But it just plain isn't that easy! Oh well. There's nothing I can do.
I am so happy with Trevor. I am over Jesse. And I am happy with my life. I like that I am this way. However, I still care about Jesse in the minute way of how I care about everyone, maybe a little more, just because I was so close to him at one point. And I hate that we can't at least just be friends. Or acquaintances. I wish he wouldn't go out of his way to not look at me, and to not laugh at my jokes or my moments of comedic genius. (ahaha xD) I wish he would respect me, like I attempt to respect him, as immature and terrible as he's been acting. I don't remember him that way. I knew him as the well put together, handsome, fun-loving, lover-boy that I had him as for a month. But he's really not like that at all. Maybe he was just different with me. But he missed his old life too much. The one where he stays up all night and all weekend on x-box live. The one where he doesn't practice trumpet and talks all of class. The one who breaks hearts and doesn't give a shit about other people. Why couldn't I have seen that, then? I could have seen and stayed with Trevor and be as happy as I am now, without ever getting hurt. Sigh. It's all in the past, but it all seems so frustrating.
Anyway, I got a magazine that featured The Hunger Games, and had 3 Posters in side!!! One of Peeta <3 <3 <3 one of Gale, and one of Katniss. The Katniss one is the like the official movie poster. I tore down some of my glee wall to make room. I also cut out pictures of like Cato (yummy) and more Peeta and also Thresh and Marvel. And more Peeta. HEhehehe.
I bought Trevor 2 presents today off of Amazon. :D He will be so excited! He's going to love them. I am sort of wishing that I didn'tshow him that I was getting him the Debussy for day dreaming one, but Oh well.
Well it's beginning to get late, and I'd like to read a bit before I drift off, so goodnight lovelies! :) mwah.
I am so happy with Trevor. I am over Jesse. And I am happy with my life. I like that I am this way. However, I still care about Jesse in the minute way of how I care about everyone, maybe a little more, just because I was so close to him at one point. And I hate that we can't at least just be friends. Or acquaintances. I wish he wouldn't go out of his way to not look at me, and to not laugh at my jokes or my moments of comedic genius. (ahaha xD) I wish he would respect me, like I attempt to respect him, as immature and terrible as he's been acting. I don't remember him that way. I knew him as the well put together, handsome, fun-loving, lover-boy that I had him as for a month. But he's really not like that at all. Maybe he was just different with me. But he missed his old life too much. The one where he stays up all night and all weekend on x-box live. The one where he doesn't practice trumpet and talks all of class. The one who breaks hearts and doesn't give a shit about other people. Why couldn't I have seen that, then? I could have seen and stayed with Trevor and be as happy as I am now, without ever getting hurt. Sigh. It's all in the past, but it all seems so frustrating.
Anyway, I got a magazine that featured The Hunger Games, and had 3 Posters in side!!! One of Peeta <3 <3 <3 one of Gale, and one of Katniss. The Katniss one is the like the official movie poster. I tore down some of my glee wall to make room. I also cut out pictures of like Cato (yummy) and more Peeta and also Thresh and Marvel. And more Peeta. HEhehehe.
I bought Trevor 2 presents today off of Amazon. :D He will be so excited! He's going to love them. I am sort of wishing that I didn'tshow him that I was getting him the Debussy for day dreaming one, but Oh well.
Well it's beginning to get late, and I'd like to read a bit before I drift off, so goodnight lovelies! :) mwah.
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